Ok so a lot has been going on in the past two months. A lot of which I didn't think would make a complete journal, so I've been putting it off for a while. However, on this note I think it's a good place to start.

So in late June I retook my drivers test for the second time. I ended up failing because I got the acursed "Scary Lary" He wasn't as terrible as others had made him out to be, but he did love to stare at me the entire time I was trying to drive, which freaked me out a bit. I mean come on, I'm already nervous because a lot of things were weighing on me getting that license THAT day. But being an idiot, I got scared and made a wrong move. Apparently I didn't look carefully enough before I changed lanes and he failed me for that. Not to mention I waited nearly 2 hours for my test in the baking heat, even though I was perfectly on time. Nice people at the DMV huh.

Next up, I've gotten a job now. I work at my niichans mom's auto shop 3 towns away from me. It's not terrible, I get payed minimum wage but her mom is nice to me and treats fairly, as well as the men there. I'm basically the slave though. XDD I've been spending my hours cleaning and painting so far since the new shop is just opening. And I got home really tired the first day. But so far, I like it. Or possibly I just like being away from my house as my boss said. Away from my home and fat ass. >> But that'll be in the next paragraph.

As for my parents. 3 or so weeks ago was pretty bad. For some reason, I don't even know what I did but fat man decided to raid my room looking for anything he could pin on me. He didn't find much because I'd already hid nearly everything. But then he tried to get my mother to look through my files on the computer. He didn't get there in time however though because the second I saw my room destroyed, I knew the next thing would be the computer. I got on very fast and rapidly started changing passwords, ID's, net histories, chat conversation locks, anything he could try to get in to. Luckily he didn't get into anything because most of my important things are under 5000 blocks and passwords. Yay me for being smart this time. But eventually I had to leave for a few days as I was doing all of this, I was even comtemplating hiding everything on DA aswell, but luckily no one got that far to even the DA site. I doubt they even know my sn. Phew.

On to the worse stuff though.. stuff that I'm still in the raw mourning stages of.. Last week on 6/22/09, my beloved friends passed away, Ammy and Aden. They were really great fantastic wonderful people, whom I loved very very much. They died together on the same day in each others arms, but I feel I shouldn't publicly say how or why.. But for them, I miss them so much.. And it really meant a lot to me and I'm sure *Calmo-Kerul that some people pitched in and helped us remember them, and offered their condolences. I don't know if the funeral will be back here in the US or in France where they were living..But I really wish I could go.. Sadly though, because I am where I am, I can't even get two blocks away. ><

Ammy and Aden were fun loving sweet men whom welcomed me into Deviantart with open arms and we quickly became friends over a year ago. It was then that I met Kai, *Calmo-Kerul and Pankakes, =Simonarrow359. We all became a fast growing and close group in the chats where we always had fun and rped together. And Ammy, I remember quite a few "rawring" contests there. Ammy was always a free spirit, and he would often tell me stories of things he'd done or his past, which he knew I loved to listen to. He would even tell me stories about Kai and Aden, whom I met soon after.

Aden was one of the most unique men I've ever met. He was a French man originally from Paris who fell in love with Ammy in the 5th grade. They've been together ever since, through thick and thin it seems. However he had been forced back to Paris during the time I'd met Ammy, who had been back in the states. Ammy told me so much about him that I knew from even the first words how much he loved Aden and missed him. However, luck was on Ammy's side when a few months later, Aden came back and I met him. Aden first off, it's you're fault I contagiously say hun!!! . Aden always had a way of greeting people with a kiss and a "hey hun" which I quickly picked up on. In fact he's the force that really started all the pet names for me. >> I HOPE YOURE HAPPY! And I'm sure he is seeing me make an idiot out of myself permanately. XDD Love you a million billion Adenloverboy Frenchy/ Pastry head.

Ammy and Aden together were a force of a good time. They always knew how to brighten your day and make you smile, even when you were miserable as all hell. They really made an impact on my life, and I'm sure Kai's because Ammy was and is his best friend for life. I like to think of Ammy as being one of the coolest most original people I've ever known and if he could read this right now I'm sure he'd say something like "Damn straight!!" Ammy and Aden. I love you very much and you'll be in my heart and memory for all my years to come.

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Still more bad stuff.. Sorry guys.

The next death we've had is of my dear friend Miguel's ex girlfriend Amanda on 6/30/09. Though I never got a chance to meet her, I know Miguel loved her very much and he misses her more than anything since she moved away to England last summer. I know she was a beautiful woman though, with bright blue eyes and a warm smile. He called me to him to help the day it happened. We spent hours like that, me just holding him until he felt ok enough to be alone without me there. Again, I don't think I should say how it happened since it's not respectful. She was truly one of a kind and even Miguel couldn't pick out his favorite memory of her, and if I knew her, I'm sure I couldn't have either. And because she was so important to him, she's automatically important to me, and she will be remembered always by him I know to be sure.

That's all I think for now, though I will update again with more as soon as I can.

Take care everyone,




~Mistress Midnight Phoenix~

ALSO!! My latest feature since i've been obsessed with new music lately. Middy's top 10 of the month:

1. [link] (Us- Celine Dion)
2.[link] (It's all coming back to me now- Celine Dion)
3. [link] (The Heart of a Life- John Mayer)
4. [link] (Suraj Hua Maddham- Kabhi Khushie Kabhie Gham)
5. [link] (Darshan- from Bend it Like Beckham)
6. [link] (Who knew- Pink)
7. [link] (I wanna Dance with Somebody- Whitney Houston)
8. [link] (Hand of Sorrow- Within Temptation)
9. [link] (The Prayer- Andrea Bocelli and Celine Dion)
10. [link] (Looking through your eyes- Leanne Rimes)



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